A “Transitional” Year

As I look back on this past year….I realize how much I have changed as an individual.  It was a very different year for me. A year of a lot of change in my life…not to mention turning 40!!

If you know anything about me, you would know I am a very much goal oriented person. I am driven. Hard working. Super dedicated.  And STUBBORN!! LOL! You might also know that I make New Year’s Resolutions (aka Goals) every year.  Since as long as I could remember, every New Year’s I would write these down and then put them in my Bible to review and remind myself throughout the year.  BUT, last year was the first year that I did not do this!  WHY?? Cos I had NO CLUE what to expect out of my year.  I had no real direction.  No real DRIVE for anything in particular….other than crossfitting and some running.

My 2015 year began with me resigning from my 6.5 year position as the Children’s Pastor at my church.  And I was coaching crossfit classes very part-time.  I had no idea what I was going to do next…. I just knew in my heart that it was time for a change.

Because I am the type of person that needs to have SOMETHING IDENTIFIED as a goal so that I can chase it, to not have any goals were a real struggle for about 8 months out of my year.  The only goal I had for the year was to do a CrossFit Competition as a RX athlete.  And that didn’t go as planned either….because I got injured one week before the competition.  **This was an athlete spirit killer for me too!

I felt like much of my year I was lost.

–I was a new crossfit coach…working hard to gather as much knowledge as possible to help my athletes.  And I was also getting to know my coaching peers…and slowly making new friends with those I worked with.

–I was a busy wife and mom—but a mom of teenagers who didn’t need me the way they used to.  It’s a big change to have kids who are somewhat independent….that need me and my attention is a totally different way than they did in the earlier years.  Now they are little adults.  I have gone from Mommy to Mom.

–I was a Christian..struggling to open my Bible and having a hard time connecting with God in my prayer life. (I truly believe this was a huge adjustment since I had just left full time ministry and struggled to know how to study without an audience in mind).

–And as an athlete….It was a humbling year.  I had spent much of my year injured. (People warned me this would happen at 40years old-haha).  I thought my injury would be just a two-three week deal but it ended up being a 4 month ordeal.  And that was just ONE injury.

I vividly remember late in the summer having a complete breakdown at Crossfit.  I was hoping to PR (aka Persona Record) on my clean lift (cos I hadn’t PRed in months…like A LOT of months) and I was due.  That day I barely hit my previous PR.  I was devastated and just threw my barbell down and took off running….while everyone else did the WOD (workout).  Yes, it was a grown woman tantrum!!!  

As I was running, I remembered that running hurt, too.  And right then and there I ran (wobbly) and cried my eyes out…wondering why God was taking everything away from me that made me ME…the things that I loved or felt like I was good at.  I couldn’t run.  I couldn’t lift heavy.  My workouts sucked.  I just ran and snot cried! I started doubting my coaching ability. I knew I was struggling spiritually but that snot run I actually felt like He was listening to me.

 

SOMETHING HAPPENED soon after that tantrum!  All of a sudden I was able to feel freedom of being okay with not having a direction.  It was like I suddenly understood I was in a “transitional stage”.  I was realizing I was refinding myself….. or I think a better term would be “redefining myself”!  And suddenly I was content to be open to any change that may come my way.

I have finished off my 2015 year feeling more confident and actually excited about this new transitional time in my life.  I am enjoying every minute of redefining who I am…..in God, as an individual, as wife, as parent, as a coach, and as a friend.

And right now I am in a good place……a very, very good place!

–And I will be making goals again this year!!! Stay tuned!  Welcoming 2016! Can’t wait to                                           see what it has in store for me!!

 

 

Experiencing the “High”

Have you ever experienced a “runner’s high”? Like after the very first time you ran a full mile without stopping? Or your first half or full marathon? It’s a feeling of great accomplishment.  It’s a feeling of believing in yourself, to be able to do more than you gave yourself credit for to start with.  It’s a feeling that you can’t wait to go back and do it again! Like you can’t get enough cos it’s so fun but yet fun in a challenging way.  I know I have experienced that actual “runner’s high” and something similar as an athlete in crossfit when achieving huge lifting personal record or completing a benchmark WOD (aka workout) in the fastest time out of the whole gym!  This feeling is amazing! And is probably what keeps me coming back for more!

Well today, I think I experienced the “coach’s high” 🙂  It was a great day for me to be coach and to see how far my athletes have come. Every one of my sessions went great! Everyone of my sessions had accomplishments today! And everyone left their classes feeling like they were better athletes.  As a coach, there is nothing sweeter than having athletes being proud of themselves and believing in themselves.  #WIN

I had 4 different sessions today. Not one of them was the same.  I had an early small group who did some circuit weight training. I have been working with this group since August of last year.  When we began, not a single one of the ladies could do a strict pushup (tricep pushup). This is not uncommon at all! But today, when we got to the pushup session, they went to the scaled version of pushing up.  This looked fairly easy on them so I asked the ladies to “try” a strict pushup….and guess what? They DID IT!  They did it beautifully!! YES!!! #WIN #A GOAL MET

Then in my second session I am working my husband and his buddy out of my house/home gym.  This was their third workout and today I introduced them to an actual HIIT workout (high intensity interval training).  These guys sweated their tails off and totally rocked their first HIIT workout.  As much as they hated it, they loved it too!!! #WIN

My third session is my actual crossfit foundations class (aka beginner’s class) at my gym, CrossFit Solus. This class has a great vibe to it. It’s one of my favorites!!! I have one veteran girl (I call her veteran because she started when I started coaching in August) and several newbies who have recently joined in the last month or so.  We have become like a little family!! :-). So that in itself is a lot of fun! But today not only did my veteran athlete face a fear of doing a kick handstand on the wall—unassisted.  But my newbies each got their double-unders with jump ropes.  This is a big deal for any new crossfitter.  Double-unders are jumping rope but roping twice under your feet at a time.  These are very hard to accomplish–but every athlete did one. I even had several able to cycle single, single, doubles quite well!  ## WIN

My last session with a private session at Solus.  It’s her second session with me.  She is totally new to the sport of crossfit and working out (other than doing the treadmill).  But this girl has so much heart and determination.  She is very coachable and that makes my job so much easier! I can see that she is enjoying our workouts and more than willing to be pushed.  She is taking on every challenge I give her and she is surprising herself along the way!! How fun is that to see a client completely shocked at what they are actually able to do (that they wouldn’t do without someone spotting them and coaching them along the way).  ##WIN

So today has been a good “coaching day”.  I am loving what I am doing! I am loving the relationships I am forming with all my clients (aka my friends). And it has given me great joy (or coach’s high) to see them leaving today with their very own “highs” for the week!!!

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Live Better. Play Harder.

Live Better. Play Harder.  This is my “tag line title” of my website/blog.  It has taken me some time to come up with this “tag line” but now that I have it, I can’t be more pleased.  I truly believe that this tag line explains what my goal is for myself but also for my clients, as well!!! #WIN #WIN

livebetterplayharder

A few months ago, my husband asked me to come up with a “tag line” for my new website.  I knew at that time I wanted something that involved the word PLAY.  I am few months away from turning FORTY, but I still “playing” as if I am a kid or teen athlete.  In matter of fact…. I may play harder now than I did in the “good ole days”.  I think that why I absolutely love what I am doing now.  It’s not only CrossFit alone that has me playing (even though I truly believe CrossFit has physically and mentally prepped me and given me the courage to play more), but also in so many other aspects in my life.  Like I said, I am almost 40 years old BUT I am having the best time of my life playing!!! Whether it’s tree bashing at crazy speeds with my brother snow skiing down a mountain….Or swimming way out too far into a lake (just cos I can). Or going for a random 17 mile run around Washington DC for some sight seeing…. Or simply playing basketball in the front yard with my kids.  These are the things I LOVE doing! They give me great joy and make me love living life.  I feel most alive when I am at “play”.

But here is the truth…. I can’t play hard if I am not properly taking care of myself.  I must FUEL properly (diet wise).  I must exercise (strength, endurance, stamina, etc). I must properly rest. I must take certain supplements that my body needs extra of.  I must train my mind—become wiser.  I must train my soul–mature in my relationship with God.  I must love…..my family, friends, and others. All these things are a part of what I mean when I think of LIVE BETTER.  Everyday, every week, every year…. I want to be better in all these aspects of my life that are greatly important to me.

So when you see my hashtags now….. #livebetter #playharder, you will now know what I am referring too!!!