The Good. The Bad. The Ugly.

Since January 7th, I have not had any processed foods, no chips, no breads, no starchy carbs, and eating very clean!  I have lost 12# and have been feeling great.  I have had no desire to go back to my bad habits…….UNTIL THIS PAST WEEKEND.

I am not sure what exactly happened this past weekend!?! I had done my food prep. I haven’t been terribly hungry and haven’t felt deprived at all.  I feel great! —-BUT SOMETHING HAPPENED!

On Thursday I ate very clean, as I normally do. The typical day of having a protein shake in the morning, eating a colorful lunch (salad this day), drinking plenty of water and green tea.  I even had some amazing workouts again this week and hit two new PRs (Personal Records) on two lifts that completely make me mental and freak me out. All was going well. But Thursday night, I got home a little late and didn’t want to prepare another thing chicken or fish so I had a few gluten free (but processed) meatballs for dinner.  (This is what I had made for my kiddos).  Two hours later I felt very full and bloated.  I have felt full and bloated all weekend because of it. Which has started a bad weekend of bad choices……

Friday I hardly ate…which is just as bad for you than eating too much (but I just didn’t feel 100%). However, my husband did take me to lunch and I had fajitas (no tortillas). I DID CAVE and have 8 chips with salsa:-(  For dinner I had a lettuce wrapped burger. Not a terrible day, but definitely had my share of cheats and didn’t eat enough and not enough veggies.   But Saturday, I failed miserably.  I woke, with a little-off tummy….and decided I must have “something” clean to eat to get my day started off right.  I didn’t feel like eating but knew I needed something.  I had another Metagenics *balanced* shake with three slices of bacon. Felt ok.  I worked out at home afterwards and that seemed to help my stomach.  I had a funeral to attend two hours away.  I had already planned on stopping at Chickfila for a salad to go.  But I was traveling with my dad and was talking and missed my exit:-(  I would have normally just waited on getting a lunch later with a better choice, but knew my dad was hungry.  We ended up stopping at Wendy’s.  I made a choice to get nuggets (processed and fried). No option of fruit here and I had no veggies 🙁 Then on the way home, I stopped to get groceries for the upcoming week. Meanwhile, at home, my husband had made some green chili chicken taco fillings.  I had this for dinner, but with a half carb balanced tortilla. **I NEVER eat tortillas anymore!!?!?!  The rest of the evening I wanted and craved bad foods.  I wanted chips (thankful we had none).  I wanted candy (thankful we had none).  I wanted wine (had some). And had wafer cookies as my snack of bad choice.

So, as you can tell…this weekend hasn’t been clean or sugar free at all.  I have felt miserable too….  But even after feeling miserable, I am amazed that my body and mind still wanted more bad foods.  I know that adding some of these foods to my diet and the lack of eating enough threw off my blood sugars.  Which has in turn made me want more of the bad stuff.  It’s a terrible cycle that I can get stuck in if I don’t be careful.

My weekend was not a failure but a reminder of how I “could” fail if I don’t recognize the mistakes and what led me to them.  I must make a conscience effort to changes to recognize and learn from my mistakes this week–and avoid them the next time I am tempted.

Today I am choosing to celebrate in the fact that I can decide to rebound nicely from this and clean this diet up immediately….STARTING NOW!

Back at it 100%.

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