“Objects in the Mirror” are not as real as they appear

I can’t even count how often I hear…..”Oh you guys are too cute!”  “You guys have such the perfect family.”  We are frequently told that some of our Facebook posts are fun and “they make me smile.” My husband and I also get mentioned as a “great couple” whom others look up to.

But I am just gonna get real raw and honest here!  We really aren’t cute!  We don’t have our “crap” together…  In matter of a fact, we are a dang mess most of the time.  We really are!!!

I do admit, we do have a great family and we work really hard to maintain our family……  BUT…….

Our kids don’t always win, we skip workouts, we eat poorly sometimes, we aren’t always “happy,” we don’t get invited to parties, our bank account gets laughable, our house is frequently messy, we fight, we skip church, we make excuses,  the sound coming from our cars need attention, and our baseboards are really bad.

Behind the curtain of our life… is absolute pure chaos sometimes.

To be honest, this past year has been the toughest year for our family. We have been in the biggest valley of our marriage. It is ONLY by God’s Grace that we are even still married.

Thankfully, we have had some good moments of laughter, success, smiles, and good friends along the way. God has been with us every step, every crawl, and every stare-at-the-ceiling late night.

So don’t let social media fool you. Most people post the best things about their week… We frequently do too. But it is not the only reality.

Don’t let social media fool you.

Tears, down times, sadness, and valleys are real, too. Struggling to just “barely hanging on” is a reality that you can live in for long periods of time. Believe me, I know.

Hang in there… if you feel alone or not as cool as the Facebook post of your friends. It’s OK. It’s OK to struggle. It’s OK to not live up to a fantasy.  We all live in the same real, broken world.

Be thankful we have a Savior that helps us through the dark times and a Savior to thank in the good times.

I know I have had to cling to Him in the valleys of life. I try to remember to cling when walking on the mountain tops too.

We are in this struggle together. You have seen my struggle in the past, and you know that I am still in the midst of it.” Phil 1:30

Making Changes and Seeing Changes

Feeling Great again thanks to these things….

So it’s been three weeks since I began my new program!  I thought it might be time to give everyone an update on how I am doing and what I am doing.  First of all, I am very happy with my progress, not only physically but mentally too!  I’m not only see inches and pounds coming off, but I feel so much more in control over my food behaviors and choices.  I am no longer “craving” those bad foods and seldom do I actually want them.  I have will power and discipline again! And because I do, I feel so EMPOWERED!  It’s an amazing feeling!!!

I haven’t felt this good in so long!  I am so in the ZONE and determined to continue.

So what have I been doing?  I have been following a strict meal plan.  I ate exactly what the meal plan called for except if I were out.  When I was out, I ate like kinds of foods (usually chicken salads).  The first week of the program I ate very clean and very balanced meals.  The second week I cut some selected starchy carbs out….still had some but only what the program suggested.  The last week the carbs were cut almost completely out. I lost 8.2# and 4 inches totally (mainly from waist and chest) during those three weeks.

Clean Eating Works. Trust me

Workout Wise?  I did a variety of things…..   I am kind of playing around with keeping my daily workouts very unroutined, because I think my body adapts to the exercise regimen and then gets used to it.  So I would do at least two workouts a day…… all in the choices of crossfit classes, lifting, running and/or online shift shop programs from beachbody.  I would workout in the mornings and evenings.  Mornings were crossfit and/or lifting.  While evenings were shift shop or running. **Let me add, I am not going “all out” at my workouts either.  I am just moving and moving well.

I also have put Shakeology back into my daily routine!  I absolutely love it…..(SHAKEOLOGY).  I have always had success from supplementing #shakeology into my diet.  I don’t like too many veggies….this supplement makes me feel better about my picky taste buds.  LOL.  And let’s just be honest! It’s super convenient and tasty.  So it’s #win all the way around.

Shakeology is working and I can tell

I haven’t felt this good in so long!  I am so in the ZONE and determined to continue.

In the next month I am going to continue my meal planning and carb cut.  I am following my very own 21 Day Sugar Detox again….but I am doing it for a full month because I have a private group following and being trained under me next week.  I have this program down to the T.  I have made some adjustments to it to make it very much doable (customized it) ** If you are interested in this private online training with me, please contact me!  I’d love to help you!  You’ll learn to so much…… (nutrition label reading, why is carb cutting a big deal, what is ketosis, what you body needs, etc).   Click here to join us.  I PROMISE YOU CAN DO THIS AND WON’T REGRET IT!

The Struggle is Real

The Struggle is REAL

For the first time in almost two years, I am finally feeling like I am gaining my will power, focus, and discipline back. It has been lost for quite some time…..which for me is very much NOT like myself. I am a very driven person. So in the last two years, its been somewhat frustrating to be lacking these things. I was very much floundering! Which has led me to weight gain and lose of true fitness (amongst others things, as well).

In the last two weeks, I have been really concentrating on my own fitness and wellness! I am eating strictly from a 21 day meal plan that will help fix my metabolism and help me trim back up. I am working out a lot too. I am back to two… even sometimes, three a day workouts; Crossfit class, online workouts, and sometimes lifting or running. I am posting like a mad woman on social media, as well….because this keeps me accountable to myself and also to my private FB accountability groups.

I am 12 days in on this new program and LOVE IT (with a 5.5# weight lose so far).

But let me be honest again with yall! It hasn’t been easy! WHY???? Well, because I am fat, fit girl right now! Meaning, I am pretty fit (I can do most WODs at a pretty good pace. I can run a couple of miles without stopping. I can lift some heavy weight). BUT GOSH YALL….. I am not in the same shape I was three to four years ago, when I was crushing all my workouts. I was 15- maybe 20 lbs smaller then. I was running 20+ miles per week, crossfitting and crushing ALL the WODs. Working out was fun and somewhat easy.

Now—well, NOW it is WORK! It is work to finish a WOD…physically and especially mentally. It makes me breath heavy to lift a lot of weight several times. And running more than 2 miles straight is a huge accomplishment if I don’t stop to rest a bit.

The Struggle is REAL HUMBLING

It’s a hard reality for me to face that I have let my fitness slip again. Especially when I am a passionate coach!! Realizing that I am not living up to what I have preached the last couple of years….is humbling, to say the least.

And it is even more so humbling when I working out and not able to push myself like I used to. For instance….1) I can’t keep up. 2) Or I can’t or shouldn’t do RX because it simply might kill me! LOL! 3) Or the fact that I went hard on Monday means that the rest of the week I am gonna be sore and tired for the remainder of the week. This is all my own fault because I let me fitness slip. And because I let my fitness slip… I am now having to retrain my body, my mind, and even my competitive spirit.

So it’s been a struggle…..not only physically but especially mentally. I have had to take on a whole new mindset to get past this!!! I have to make a conscience effort in the morning to have the right attitude and work hard mentality…. My brain has to tell my heart, “I have done this before. I have been down this road of being out of shape. And it’s absolutely possible to get my fitness back. But I am gonna have to work my tail off to do it. I am gonna have to embrace the suck!!! I am gonna have to keep moving even when I don’t want to. I am gonna have to scale, if I want to move fast. I am gonna have to eat right foods to fuel myself properly if I want to perform well and lose weight. I am gonna have to say no to social drinks or cookouts that involve non-programmed foods.”

IT’S GONNA BE HARD WORK! THE STRUGGLE IS GONNA BE REAL!

I have to change my mindset and tell my ego to stop being upset at myself, to stop frowning upon myself for not being able to kick ass at every WOD, and to not beat myself up for slowly allowing myself to fall back into these bad habits again. And instead, I have to say…..EVERY DAY… I am doing this and I am doing it well. Even if I am sore, slower than I want, or even not look the way I want. I know that I am improving myself more and more every day.

I CAN! and I WILL get my fitness back!!!!!

Hey… Wives and Moms, do this!!!

This is to every wife or mom out there!!! I need to tell ya’ll something that you MUST DO!!! Take some solo time… alone…away!!!! It’s a must!!! I am a wife (19 yrs of marriage) and a mom of three teenagers (parenting for 17.5 years)….and for the first time in my adult life, I took a solo vacation. And it was more than I ever dreamed and hoped for.

Early Morning Quiet Time

If you read my last post, A HOT MESS,, you would have learned that I have been in a very rough and difficult time in my life. Life has been messy. And once the mess gets so out of control….just like a dirty unorganized house, you can get overwhelmed, stressed, and freaked out. And, suddenly you do not even know where to begin to start cleaning the mess up. That is where I have been recently.

So, I needed a temporary escape from all the chaos. And it was GLORIOUS! Simply divine and glorious!!

I traveled to East Texas and stayed at a friend’s lake house. The place was perfect. Plenty to do outside, plenty of nature, and complete quietness. I came with NO PLANS other than to rest, pray, read my Bible, and be outside (I hear God best when being outdoors).

Quiet Mornings and Evenings

So I spent three days alone at this lake house. I would wake early and go for a run on the windy roads around the lake. I saw deer all the time. I would then sit on the back porch (for hours) that over looked this quite beautiful lake, and I would pray, read my Bible and work on hand lettering scriptures for fun while I ate breakfast. After lunch, I would go get in the water and either swim or paddle board. I would also binge watch Greys Anatomy on Netflix too… ha ha ha. And I did a lot of sitting and thinking and meditating on what God wanted from and for me.

I can not explain how magical that time was to have there all alone. I remember thinking to myself as I drove out there….. I am probably gonna get lonely or bored. LET ME TELL YOU!!!! I DID NOT ONE DANG BIT!!! It was so freeing, relaxing and refreshing to just BE STILL for once.

I also would advice you to do something out of your comfort zone while away too. For me….. I never knew I would have a problem getting into unknown lake waters BY MYSELF!  It seriously took me 15 minutes and a glass of wine to get in. HAHAHA! And then I got even more daring by pulling out the paddle board and then getting out on on that by myself. 1) I have only paddle-boarded once 2) What if I fell off and couldn’t get back on by myself? But I did it…..and it was a blast! I paddle-boarded all over that lake! LOVED LOVED LOVED IT!!!

Loved my Paddle Board

The last night my husband came to join me….he brought me steaks for dinner and I “allowed” him to crash my party for the evening. Which was a nice treat to end my time there. But do not tell him—-my time alone there was way better than the steak :).

My Cute House Guest

Funny thing was…..I found myself crying as I left my little oasis that last day. Because the reality of my normal chaotic life awaited me back at home. I wasn’t really crying because I didn’t want to come back home….but because I was so grateful for that time alone with God for a few short days. I knew the reality of the BUSY WORLD was going to grab hold of me again once I arrived back home.

Recharged

I am home! I am refreshed… a bit renewed. And loving my chaotic life. But I do have on my calendar to make it a priority to have a solo vacation once a year from here on out!!! I am counting the days to my next one……